Di has left the blogging...

...without a doubt the person who began this blog has departed! Moved on to living life out in the 'real' world! This is a good thing! No more whining (okay, maybe now and then), no more blaming others for where I am in life, no feeling sad and lonely and depressed (and depressing), and cynical, resentful -- gosh how ugly that all sounds!! Yep, I'm leaving it all behind!

Lately, I've been known to say that I'm -- brace yourself -- happy, with my life!!! I've also informed others that the 'wallflower' has bloomed!! Boy, was I such a wallflower most of my life!! Well, no more!

Where has this taken me?! On adventures far and wide and sometimes while right here at home!! I've made connections with old friends and am no longer afraid of making new friends, of forming new relationships -- which sometimes involves leaving old ones behind!! I'm not sitting around waiting for someone to choose for me whom I'll be with and where I'll go. I'm aware now, more than ever, that I'm in charge of my own life, even when engaged with another! I listen more carefully when someone is sharing conversation with me or calling upon me or observing me, etc. Again, in those situations, I maintain my sense of who I am, where I want to go, and whom I want to be with. It's SOO liberating and feels so much safer! I need not 'trust' myself to another when I clearly know I can trust myself!! :)) Funny thing about that -- you CAN trust yourself with another when you know you can trust yourself!!

Elementary stuff, I know, but finally, yes, it does seem doable...simple enough. I have done my homework...I've been hoping for that A!! I may just obtain it!! :))