Today I discarded my inhibitions and wrote from my heart....I was aware of grammar...I checked my spelling...I was proud of the post...I felt it was the first 'honest' and heartfelt entry I'd written so far. I even had it posted on this blog at one point. Then I discovered I had removed a space between paragraphs that needed to be there, so I went back to the blogger to insert the space. After I finished w/the draft and felt the post was on the blog....I deleted what I thought was an old draft of the entry, believing the final draft was posted and would remain on the blog...WRONG!!! I deleted the post from both sites. BUMMER!!! I really don't feel I can reconstruct the post to it's original form. I am so disturbed by this...grrrrr!!!!

I'm wondering how to avoid this in the future...it's disturbing to have mastered my feelings by putting them into words only to lose the results. I gained insight to what I was feeling about the particular subject, so I suppose that matters most.